Sleeps with Butterflies

"One" by U2

2011-10-05T14:24:00.000-05:00

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's

Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
carry each other
carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
See we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love is a higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't keep holding on
To what you got
When all you've got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
Sisters, brothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One...
One...

~ In Stock Jewelry on Etsy ~

2011-05-13T13:44:00.005-05:00

hey out there blogger world ~ i know i've been pretty absent lately out here ~ so much has gone on and i just don't have time to blog right now...hopefully that will change someday soon. i do love to write!

i have been making lots of jewelry and have updated my etsy shop with all of my in stock items. take a look and feel free to purchase anything you'd like :)

http://www.etsy.com/shop/sunshinebuttrflygirl

you can also find me on facebook : search "sunshine butterfly creations"

ciao for now!

~ NECKLACE SALE ~

2011-04-20T12:55:00.001-05:00

heya blogger world ~

all of my in stock necklaces are for sale in my ebay shop. you have 3 days ~ happy bidding! :)

MY EBAY

New Necklaces

2011-02-08T20:05:00.001-06:00

hey guys - i've been working hard on some new necklaces and now have them up for sale on Etsy....

check em out!!!

http://www.etsy.com/shop/sunshinebuttrflygirl

Diet Time Again

2011-01-27T15:47:00.002-06:00

so i have 59 days until my wedding.

diet started again 3 days ago. i have to stick to it for the next 2 months so i can be a lovely bride.

the first 3 days of this diet makes me feel like pooooo. all the protein and raw green veggies i can eat. no carbs or sugars. bleh. body going through withdrawls and detox. not necessarily a bad thing, but feel crappy none-the-less. i lost 35 lbs on it, gained 10, lost 5 and now i'm back on full throttle, so we'll see how far i get this time. wish me luck!

ciao ~

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 8

2011-01-25T11:24:00.001-06:00

email from work : ... "We are missing an eclectic hole puncher..."

butterfly : “eclectic”? what exactly is an ECLECTIC hole punch? Is it a little bohemian?

ivycurlz : Oh it’s a souped up version of the electric one, its all the rage!

Bridesmaids

2010-12-27T13:52:00.004-06:00

i have been trying to decide what colors i want my bridesmaid's dresses to be. i recently saw the movie 'wedding crashers' and absolutely fell in love with the bridesmaid's dresses in this movie. i love the scarlet colored ones at the end, but this is the one i am speaking of :

i am also incorporating this color into my dress now. so it will be the green from below and this sand/nude color in the sash. i think it will be stunning.

so here's the thing. i haven't actually been to any bridal shops locally yet, but i would like the dress to be under $100 for my bridesmaids. since i am a bit granola and my dress is very eco-friendly, i would also love the bridesmaid's dresses to be as well...but if not, i can let it slide.

any ideas out there? and any links that you find, please feel free to let me know.

It's All About The Dress, Right?

2010-12-14T15:33:00.006-06:00

so some of you out there might know how much of a non girlie-girl i am and i'm pretty simple as far as fashion/design goes. but i knew when and if i was ever getting married, i was going to have a very lovely, talented sweet mama make my dress for me. i will post who it is once i get the dress, so you'll just have to be in suspense until then. i did want to post the direction it is going in.

the above photo is the basis of the dress. it will be made from hemp silk charmeuse. (no you can not smoke my dress after the wedding, so don't even ask - i've already had plenty of requests to do so :p)
the above photo will show the color green sash that will be under the bodice of the dress. it will be this color green and my seamstress will also be incorporating another green (in place of the brown shown in the photo).
and lastly, the above photo is the rough sketch of my dress. originally we were going to go with the brown in the sash like the photo above this, but i have changed my mind and now we are incorporating 2 shades of green. obviously the colors in the sketch aren't true to actual color.

i'm so excited about my dress i can hardly see straight. anything else about the plans could fall into place by themselves for all i care. i can't wait to wear this gorgeous piece of art. :)

Is This Thing On?

2010-12-14T11:53:00.007-06:00

howdy cyber blog world. i've been MIA for quite some time, but just had the urge to pop in and say hello.

a lot has happened since my last post.

the biggest news is i am blissfully engaged to my amazing fiance since november 7, 2010. our wedding date is set at march 26, 2011, but this is about as far as we've gotten. i am having my dress made and the lovely mama that will be stitchin it up is starting on it tomorrow :) i'm so excited. it's going to be stunning!

i am still getting used to the fact that i am engaged or hearing myself being called "fiance" or "soon to be wife", however, it didn't take long for me to get used to my ring being on my finger. i am not one that wears any jewelry with the exception of necklaces. i never have worn rings before. but i stare at it all the time. it's perfect, simple and beautiful. whenever it is off of my finger (washing dishes, washing hands, shower), i feel completely naked.

life is good!

i went through a horrible quick relationship that ended in june that i would rather not rehash. my fiance and i have been together off and on for 6 years. he came back into my life at the beginning of july and it was finally meant to be. our relationship is stronger than ever and our love for each other only grows daily. i am incredibly blessed and a very lucky woman.

and I'M GETTIN MARRIED!!!! :) :) :) :) :)

the ladybug is doing well. she's in the 6th grade (my eyes still bug out when i say or read that), learning to play the violin and making great grades. she's really excited about our engagement and the union of both of our families, which she will be getting 3 more siblings - 2 brothers and a sister. she's such a joy and such an amazing little person.

other than that, i lost a bunch of weight. 35 lbs to be exact. however, over the last 2 months, i gained 10 of it back. :\ so i'm back on my diet now and i've lost 6 of those 10 lbs already, but ultimately i'm headed for 20 more to be at my goal weight. then it will all be about maintaining.

i've also begun a life-program that is amazing. it's a process and something i will be including in my life for the remainder of my days, but i feel very positive about it. it's something that my fiance and i do together and it will be a major staple and strength in our long life together.

christmas is coming up entirely too quickly. this is my favorite time of year, but it comes and goes in the speed of light. AND i haven't gotten any christmas shopping done, so guess what we will be doing this weekend? joy. i wish i could just make everyone something, but obviously ran out of time to be able to do that too. gotta love procrastination.

work has been insanely busy and part of the reason why i haven't been posting on here at all as well.

so that's about it for now. i will try not to be such a stranger. i miss blogging. it's always a good form of therapy. ;)

hope my 2 faithful readers out there are doing wonderfully and enjoying life to the fullest.

~ much love ~

The Joys of MortgageLand

2010-09-27T15:42:00.003-05:00

yes, these 2 stories REALLY happened. and today actually :

1. i underwrote a loan where the borrower has had 2 jobs in the last 2 years and his most current job, he was laid off and on unemployment for a couple of months THIS year. so i asked that the employer state the dates of unemployment on the verification of employment and MUST state that it was not likely to happen again.

broker responds with an email stating that the borrower is upset about this and why would we need this, etc.

i respond back with "unfortunately I need them to state that it is unlikely to happen in the future to establish stability of income. His employment is not 100% stable in my opinion."

so broker responds back with "what about his employment is not stable?!"

so we go round and round....this was last week.

this morning, we get an email from the broker...

"Good Morning,

Please do NOT continue working on the above file. Customer has cancelled.

Thanks"

so ivycurlz emails her back and asks if she wants us to go ahead and cancel out the file.

her response :

"please..................guess what.................Mr. S* lost his job !!!............guess the underwriter called that one, huh !!!"

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2. "This is an emergency we are going to lose this loan if we don't fund for september. Conditions attached - lets get the CTC!!!

Thanks again, *name withheld*"

let me clarify that CTC means 'clear to close'.

so ivycurlz looks at the conditions that were sent in and the broker fails to realize that the written verification of employment that was completed by the employer states that the borrower RESIGNED 9/8/10.

DEAR LORD HELP ME.

__________________________________________

soooooo......

no, these scenarios did NOT happen, but we made fun anyway :

butterfly : Hey I have a borrower that has been at 12 jobs in the last 2 years and unemployment on top of that. But we PROMISE they will still be at their job for many years to come, so you shouldn’t need to prove stability of income, right?

Kthxbye.

farls : ok so my borrower has never had a job but promises to get one if you approve this mortgage loan.
Please condition for the promise note, and make that a funding condition...need to close asap!

ivycurlz : Scenario:
Excellent credit customer (mid 500’s) been on the job for 6 months (laid off twice in the last year its not their fault though I can get an LOX) and only 42 NSF’s in the past 60 days, what do you think?

butterfly : Hey! I need a CTC right now like yesterday like right now and here all my conditions and I’m such an idiot that I didn’t even see that the VOE says he had resigned. OMG> LOL. IDK. I’m so silly.

farls : I really need to close this file, the borrowers girlfriends, cousin's, neighbor's, best friend is going to promise to split the payment if he can use the garage for a pharmaceutical production facility.Borrowers promises this is not an illegal operation and will be very profitable, can you make this a funding condition? Really need to get this done before the end of the month.

Jeremy Spoke In Class Today

2010-09-20T10:55:00.004-05:00

this is an odd post and entirely random as i haven't posted on this thing in so long, but this is sparked by a conversation i had over the weekend about the well-known pearl jam song "jeremy". years after the song came out i remember having arguments with people about who this song was about. it took me way back and brought back so many memories. i argued that this was about a kid that killed himself in richardson, a suburb of dallas. i would always get crazy looks and the "whatever" reactions.

i met jeremy prior to his death. the memory is a little hazy, but i remember his face. end of 1990-beginning of january 1991. i was 14, about to be 15 and in the 9th grade. i was over at my friend dusty's house one day and there was this kid jeremy there - if i remember correctly he had a friend or two with him as well. i remember us all hanging out for a while that day although i don't remember what we did. i remember that jeremy liked dusty very much, and i remember talking to her about him and her feelings toward him were not mutual. so i'm pretty sure they stopped talking. it wasn't long after that time that we had heard the news that he had killed himself in front of his classroom in a high school a few miles away from us. dusty and i had started to drift apart as friends at that time, but i do remember talking to her and she was so distraught by it and feeling like somehow her not liking him back had a part in his actions. we were just kids when this happened, but the affect it had on us was scarring. we were too young to understand.

so this morning, i got on the internet and did some research. there are interviews with eddie vedder where he does in fact state that this song was written after he had read the news about jeremy wade delle taking his own life in front of his high school classroom at richardson high school in richardson, tx.

going back to this time in my mind is so strange...i haven't visited that specific place in so many years.

jeremy, so many years after you took your own life, i think of you today and remember back to the day that you did this. i'm sorry that you felt like you had to leave this earth when you did. being a teenager was the roughest part of my life...it's amazing that many of us do make it out alive. i remember your face and seeing your photo has a true sense of eeriness. rest in peace, dear jeremy.

here's a good website dedicated to him : http://www.ssheps.com/jeremynew.htm

Stairway to Where?

2010-08-05T13:28:00.000-05:00

butterfly: and she's buying a stairway
to your mama's houseeeeeeee

ivycurlz: and as I wind on down the road, my culos bigger than my soul

If You Love Someone....

2010-07-22T11:18:00.008-05:00

boy: baby i've come to the conclusion that we need to be together forever
and ever
andever
and ever

girl: finally...took you long enough to come to that conclusion!

boy: im serious
I love you and I dont wanna not be with you anymore

girl: really?
REALLY?!?!?!

boy: baby
im serious

girl: i know i'm serious too
i never thought you would say any of this to me
my heart is racing

boy: well i am buddy
so just deal with it

girl: i would love nothing more than to deal with it

boy: you're the only person that has truly loved me and I was always to scared of it and always ran away
it scared me and i ran all the time
I dont want to run away anymore

girl: yes i know you did. and every time it broke my heart.
but i could never and would never force you to feel something you didn't

boy: im sorry

girl: please don't apologize

boy: I've always loved you
always

girl: just as i've always loved you

boy: no matter what i've said or done
always
and when we weren't together I missed you so much

girl: i almost don't know what to say
i feel like i'm dreaming

boy: i miss u

girl: i miss you too

boy: what do you think about what i said
??

girl: i'm still in shock. it feels like i'm dreaming.

boy: ???

girl: i'm speechless.

boy: i dont wanna be away from you again

girl: i never thought you would say those things to me
i don't want you to either

boy: well i saying them now

girl: so really? forever?

boy: we dont need to be apart again
ever

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i never knew if i truly believed in the saying "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

it wasn't until i TRULY TRULY let go (and yes, there is a difference between saying you have let go and truly doing so - i've experienced both - the prior many times) and had moved on, that he came back.

so a girl falls in love with a boy again.

for the first time.

Philippe Cousteau, Jr.

2010-06-09T08:13:00.002-05:00

i would like to take a moment to put the spotlight on my new crush. ha! but in all seriousness....philippe cousteau jr is an absolute inspiration. he's come into the spotlight as of late with the oil spill. yes, he is the grandson of jacques cousteau. and look at him, he's absolutely GORGEOUS.

http://www.philippecousteau.com/

he's been on media shows recently speaking about the oil spill and offering his expertise and opinion on the matter. he is the CEO of earthecho international, a non-profit organization whos mission is to empower youth to take action that restores and protects our water planet. he is the chief ocean correspondent for animal planet and also for planet green channel.

what an inspiration he is and his work is dignifying.

so a HOT environmentalist. what more could you ask for? :p

"Can A President Be An Angry Black Man?"

2010-06-08T14:44:00.004-05:00

Can A President Be An Angry Black Man?

please read and open for discussion.

firstly, this article is interesting and has some good points. however, i am getting a little irritated with all of the media's hype about the emotion / lack of emotion coming from our president. a lot of my respect and likeness for my president is that he is a calm and collective human being. black, white, green, orange...i don't give a flying frack. this is a sign of strength and intelligence in my opinion. it is not in his nature to be an angry person or a hot-head. didn't we all know this by now? george w. bush was a hot-head and flew off the handle every time we turned around. not to mention the fact that he is not very smart....someone like that is not someone who i want running our country. i want someone who is calm, collective and takes time to make a well thought-out educated decision on matters especially concerning the affect on my country. john mccain was george w. bush hot-head junior. he made that painfully obvious throughout all of the debates that mccain and obama had prior to obama being elected.

so either way....our president can not win. if he comes out flailing, he's automatically considered the "angry black man" by RWNJ's and if he comes out calm and collective, then he's not showing enough emotion. wtf people seriously. do i agree with my president 100%? no. do i support him 100%? yes. because i have faith in him and believe he has our best interest at heart for our country. do i think he should have acted a little quicker after the explosion of this oil rig? maybe so. but people need to quit putting all of this on him. this is not our president's "katrina" - which if i hear someone else say this, i am going to scream. he can't put on a wetsuit and become aquaman and dive 1 mile under the ocean and shut the leak off. he is doing the best that he can with the tools that he has. not to mention all of the other million pressing issues that our country has at the moment. he is only one man. one human man. have a little faith in him people and quit criticizing every little thing he does - especially something as trivial as showing the "correct" amount of emotion or not. ugh.

Lo-cal

2010-06-02T09:28:00.000-05:00

crackmonkey : i'm trying to keep it local, like my produce. ;)

Jesus Built My Hot Rod

2010-05-11T14:19:00.002-05:00

ivycurlz: 4 missing after sinkhole swallows Quebec home
the earth is eating us
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/37085694/ns/world_news-americas/
butterfly: sweeeeeeeeeeeet baby jesus with a thumb up his nose
ivycurlz: sweeeeet baby jesus got a rumble in his belly
hungry for humannzzz
jesus is a zombie
jesus built my hot rod
butterfly: i forgot to tell you happy zombie jesus day on easter
ivycurlz: its a love affair mainly between jesus and my hot rod, yeah fuck it
butterfly: i wanted to post that on my fb, but i was afraid too many people would get offended
stupid people. jesus was a funny guy.
ivycurlz: i would be offended
weeeeeeeeeeee
butterfly: i know you would...you were the one i was worried about
wheeeeeeeeeeee
zombie jesus
ivycurlz: he was prolly the class clown
silly jesus
pranks are for april 1st

My Dinosaur Ate Your Jesus Fish

2010-05-11T14:14:00.002-05:00

butterfly: "we can't all do big arms!"
in other news, the earth is eating us. literally.
i think the apocalypse has begun.
crackmonkey: "and those squirrels would be COVERED in makeup"
and i think you're right
butterfly: and to make you laugh...
http://rlv.zcache.com/dinosaur_eats_jesus_fish_sticker-p217246112849752257qjcl_400.jpg
crackmonkey: lol

More Banter

2010-04-30T14:37:00.004-05:00

crackmonkey: i'm so mad. can't get that damn song out of my head now
butterfly: you think that's bad.... i keep getting flashes of "arthur" in my head
crackmonkey: LOL
butterfly: dudley moore
wtf
crackmonkey: ugliest leading man ever
and shortest
butterfly: indeed.

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crackmonkey: how'd you like to have this for a last name: (website hidden)
butterfly: oh my god
it's your new russian name
*crackmonkey* szafranski
crackmonkey: LMAO
ms. szafranski needs her vodkas
butterfly: LOLOLOL
i wonder if the other parents will look at me funny if i bring a roadie to ladybug's game tonight
crackmonkey: SNORT
awesome
put it in a paper bag
butterfly: classy
crackmonkey: nah, just put it in a taco bell cup. i read on TFLN that the biggest size taco bell cup can fit a whole bottle of wine
butterfly: see you learn things on that site
highly educational
crackmonkey: exactly

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butterfly: total
eclipse
of
the
heart
*jazz hands*
crackmonkey: ok, this is a serious question now:
why. do. you. hate. me???
butterfly: not sure if you noticed or not, but i am having fun tormenting you with songs today
atleast i haven't rick rolled you
....yet.
muahahahahaha

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crackmonkey: hate you
butterfly: what?
why?
:p
crackmonkey: you just rick rolled me by phone!
i didn't know that was possible!
butterfly: LOL! classic

The Moon and New York City

2010-04-30T14:17:00.002-05:00

butterfly: i have a question
exactly how do you caught between the moon and new york city?
is that even possible?
crackmonkey: you bitch
butterfly: LMAO!!!!!!!
i <3 you
no but in all seriousness....for real? was he on LSD when he wrote this song?
crackmonkey: maybe he was on a plane
i've been stuck between the moon and new york city before
butterfly: ohhhhhhhhhh
that makes total sense now
thank you for the enlightenment
crackmonkey: that's what i'm here for
butterfly: i found it kind of hard to believe that christopher cross was on any mind altering drugs.
i mean...it's christopher cross
crackmonkey: thejonesey: what i wanna know is why is the owner of a broken heart so much better than an owner of a lonely heart?
butterfly: LOL!

The Death of Stupid

2010-04-29T10:50:00.002-05:00

this conversation comes after i found out about a group on facebook that is 'praying' for the death of president obama....over 1 million fans, mind you.

(insert banter, general cussing and mention of quitting the human race)

butterfly: i am going to create a facebook page called "praying for the death of all stupid"
and a picture with BIG ARMS
AND big hands
crackmonkey: and jazz hands
"praying for darwin's theory to working faster"
work, not working
see? i'm one of the stupids
butterfly: LMAO! i so love you

Jeff, the God of Biscuits

2010-04-28T09:05:00.003-05:00

go ahead and try and make ANY sense of this conversation...LOL

butterfly: so when i laid down to go to sleep last night i was laughing hysterically for some reason "do you have a flag?" came into my head and i couldn't stop laughing.
i need help
crackmonkey: i'm laughing about you laughing about "do you have a flag?"
big arms
we can't all do big arms!
butterfly: oh my god i am laughing so hard right now
we need to have a wine/eddie night soon
crackmonkey: yes please
i have bought that dvd 3 times. and each time was for someone else
butterfly: and we can have the lovers pizza guy deliver us a pizza. "oh i missa your house. and i poke badgers with spoons"
crackmonkey: jeff the god of biscuits!
butterfly: LOL
i just read this conversation and pictured someone else reading it and the deer in headlights look on their face made me laugh even harder
crackmonkey: oh totally
WTF are these chicks talking about?
they need help
butterfly: pretty sure we would get that comment 80% of the time
crackmonkey: yeah, you're right
"L" cracked me up with Fo yesterday
butterfly: the other 20% is being all serious at work and shit
LOL
i know and she was probably like "what?"
lol
crackmonkey: i know!
butterfly: sure it was a typo to her, but to us....
crackmonkey: did she just tell me to f.o.???
butterfly: LOL
crackmonkey: unfortunately her hubby doesn't do iphone apps
boo
i could've gotten him a jobby job
butterfly: then they would have to move back here!
wheeeeeeeee
crackmonkey: well...no. either denver or phoenix. :I
butterfly: oh well hell
lol
those are both closer than wisCANson
crackmonkey: LOL
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
i think i ate bad sushi yesterday
butterfly: SEE!
crackmonkey: my tummy is JACKED
butterfly: sushi=bad
crackmonkey: it was from a grocery store, doof
not a smart choice
butterfly: still something sketchy about raw fish
crackmonkey: yummy
butterfly: you are yuk
crackmonkey: my tummy is yuk
butterfly: that too
crackmonkey: i totally missed a great yer momma up there
yer momma sketchy
butterfly: ha! you did!

Today's Baby Jesus Quote

2010-04-20T12:41:00.001-05:00

ivycurlz: weeeeeeeeeeeee babay jessusususu moonwalking to the safety dance
sssss
aaaaa
fffff
eeeee
tttt
yyyyy
ssaffeety dance

Hot Mess

2010-04-13T09:28:00.005-05:00

butterfly: can you please find someone a little more local?
k thanks
:p
crackmonkey: no shit
he's talking about moving to dallas :I
before we started talking, that is
butterfly: well...that's a start :) :)
crackmonkey: too soon!
too soon!
too soon!
butterfly: well not FOR you... he was going to anyway right?
if he does atleast he would be close enough so ya'll can hang and get to know each other
sheesh
crackmonkey: yes. still, even talking to him feels TOO SOON!
butterfly: what's the harm in that?
:p
well if it feels too soon then don't do it
but you are doing it...
so....
crackmonkey: i know. ugh. i am a hot mess
butterfly: we all are
besides how can you define "too soon"?
sometimes meeting someone is the best way to get over someone else
off topic, john cusack totally tweets like he acts
horribly cute
and another thing...i don't know about this twatter business
it has managed to give me a headache...too overwhelming.
hehe
crackmonkey: oh whatever. i'll give you a tutorial. i really only use it a couple times a week, but check the ones i follow every day
butterfly: cafe brazil in deep ellum is serving apple chipotle chili as soup of the day. damnit! damn the beef! if it was turkey chili i would be all over that!
crackmonkey: YUM
i bet we could find a recipe and sub turkey
butterfly: oooooooooooooooh
gonna note that on my things to do list
good reason to make a big batch of it and have all of our non-commital friends come to dinner
we could make a drinking game out of guessing who will show
crackmonkey: yup - at my new casa!
we'll be eating chili for days
butterfly: LMAO!
we are ridiculous
crackmonkey: i know
so are they though
butterfly: good point
crackmonkey: they still act like 22 year olds
butterfly: it's like benjamin button. they are aging in reverse
well...
crackmonkey: LOL
butterfly: well...
not true because they didn't start out old, wise and mature
crackmonkey: if they were aging into brad pitt, that'd be ok
butterfly: LOL!!!!

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more at PING!

Can't.Stop.Laughing.

2010-04-07T09:48:00.000-05:00

i so love the onion.

U.S. Government: We Have Not Forgotten About Osaka Binn Rogen

Manshack

2010-04-06T16:00:00.002-05:00

butterfly : So this new file I picked up to underwrite – last name “Manshack”

LOLOLOL

ivycurlz : LOL!!!!!!!!! Is he married? Cause that would be awesome to be Mrs. Manshack!

butterfly : Yes they are.

Manshack…baby manshack. Folks linin up outside just to get dowwwwwwwwwwn.

ivycurlz : Everybodys grooving everybodys movin baby

meggers : Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin roof. Rusty!

farls : I got me a car it fits about 20 so come on and bring your juke box money.......

butterfly : The Manshack is a little ol’ place where…we can get togetherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

ivycurlz : Manshack baby! Manshaaackk, that’s where its aaattt manshackkkk that’s where its aaatt

Randomonium

2010-04-05T17:06:00.003-05:00

so i had some time to kill this afternoon after i had finished working and i starting going through my blog and skimming through all of my old posts. it's so fun to read them to see how much you have changed/grown and on the other hand, how you've stayed just the same.

i know i haven't been posting much. i'm just at a stage in my life that i've taken a step back from the blogging world. who knows if it's permanent or if i'll pick it back up and run with it again. it's just where i am now.

life is blissful - i turned 34 this year and my little ladybug is growing up so fast.

ciao for now ~ butterfly

End of The Week Banter

2010-04-02T16:56:00.002-05:00

butterfly: off topic - i still want to check out the gospel brunch there at some point in my lifetime

natorchen: hehe ok

natorchen: you just gotta pick a day when you don't have soccer and peal your ass off tha couch

butterfly: yer mom

natorchen: that just read like "fuck off"

butterfly: we've known each other way too long

butterfly: :P

natorchen: hehehe

I heart gmail

2010-04-01T10:16:00.000-05:00

silly gmail. tricks are for kids.

Today's vowel outage

Quote Of The Day

2010-03-31T09:55:00.001-05:00

ivycurlz : "Sweet Babay Jesus on the summer sun"

PHISH in 3D - in theaters April 30th

2010-03-25T09:54:00.000-05:00

HOLY MOLY!!!!!!!!

Phish 3D film due out April 30th

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 7

2010-03-19T15:41:00.003-05:00

ivycurlz: dammit
carey bros is in austin right now
lets go!
hes going to rudy's bbq then over to the tap room

butterfly: um i know!
my friend jaime saw him last night
so jealous!

ivycurlz: omg
can we peeease go?

butterfly: *ivycurlz*! we can't go you weirdo

ivycurlz: why not?

butterfly: um because we are broke and won't have a place to stay and it's crazy there right now

ivycurlz: you place yourself in the car and put it in drive
you have 1988210103 friends

butterfly: i am going to kick you
so what
and no i don't have that many friends

ivycurlz: surely one of the lives in austin

butterfly: several live in austin

ivycurlz: ?
ok then?

butterfly: *natorchen*'s down there right now too
LMAO!
as you know

ivycurlz: uh so you were saying we didnt have anywhere to stay?

butterfly: that doesn't escape the fact that i am broke and i'm not going to stalk cary
even though i love him
i stalk him enough with his fb posts

ivycurlz: uh
if we happen to be in the same bar as him that really doesnt make us stalkers

butterfly: HAHAHAHA
well we would go to the tap or whatever it's called
that is stalking because we know he's there
weirdo
it's not like oh wow guess who just walked in

ivycurlz: oh well of course he would KNOW that

butterfly: then i could molest him and be ok with it

ivycurlz: oh theres *butterfly*, she must be stalking me cause shes here
and that guy over there, and that girl over there, and the waiter who is serving me

butterfly: *IVYCURLZ*
he would know i'm stalking him because i wouldn't get off of his leg

ivycurlz: *BUTTERFLY*
lol
humpin carys leg
humpty humpt

butterfly: it's a reality sister

ivycurlz: yo sister
go sister
soul sister
hey sister

butterfly: you have officially cracked out. you need to go home.

ivycurlz: hi cary could you hold still? Im trying to hump your leg
ok thank you

butterfly: copy and paste this whole convo for me and send in an email will you?

ivycurlz: um ok

butterfly: stupid *messenger service* has jacked it up

ivycurlz: are you going to send this convo to him? That would be awesome

butterfly: no fruitcake - i'm posting it under our psycho ramblings
tick tock tick tock i'm waiting
butterfly sent a Buzz!

ivycurlz: yo mama waiting
i think you should send him this in an email on FB
he would prolly think it was hysterical
cuase he seems like he has a sense of humor

butterfly: he would probably ban us from coming within 30 feet of him ever or attending any of his shows.

ivycurlz: nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
phht
he wouldnt
he would think it was funny
then be like WHOA these chicks seem funny
i am going to hire them
and we can quit our jobs
and see him everyday
the end

butterfly: i really wonder how your brain comes up with these things sometimes

ivycurlz: im pretty sure my mom did alot of drugs when she was preggers with me
i have no other explanation

butterfly: well that explains a lot then

Stop Touching Me

2010-03-18T15:37:00.002-05:00

conversation between ivycurlz and a fella up here at work.

"i would appreciate it if you would stop touching me."

ivycurlz: "If you give me a hug I will give you a 24 hour restraining order against myself."

Really?!?

2010-03-18T10:07:00.002-05:00

ok i am going on my soapbox again for just a moment. pardon me please...

so as a lot of you know out there, i was in an on-again off-again relationship with someone for 5 years. and in the off times, i had dated some other people here and there...nothing panned out.
i went through a heartbreak with this person in august of '09. it was pretty tough to get over, but i made it through and have completely overcome it.

i tried to date a couple of months after and i realized it was too soon. went out on a few dates. no biggy.

so, why when i have met someone that i really like and am falling for in the most amazing way, do these other guys come out of the woodwork? i kid you not, in the last 3-4 days, i have gotten texts from 4 different guys that i don't talk to on a regular basis...it's like they sense that shit. i want to tell them all to f - off, but that would be entirely too mean of me and i'm just not that type of person. but i sure am thinking it. one even had the audacity to say "what have you gotten yourself into? i've been waiting for you!" WHAT?!?! you haven't spoken to me in months and once you find out that i am seeing someone, i get that? wow. just wow. so, i tell you what boys, you had your chance, you blew it or it just didn't work out...i've met someone and i'm going for it. see ya.

it's about damn time i deserve some happiness and have someone treat me with love and respect as i will do the same.

*end soap box.

adios for now.

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 6

2010-03-17T09:39:00.003-05:00

ok so my last posting of one of these was oh...10 months ago. ha! i'm a slacker. sorry.

butterfly: christopher cross is on

ivycurlz: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

butterfly: when you get lost between the moon and new york cityyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

butterfly: how do you get lost between the moon and new york city? was he high?

butterfly: lol

ivycurlz: i think we should email him and ask him to play at the WWF

butterfly: uh

butterfly: lol

ivycurlz: wha?

ivycurlz: WFF

ivycurlz: not WWF

butterfly: WWF made it funny....what is WFF?

ivycurlz: when you get caught between my coooololoooooo

butterfly: oh wildflower festival

butterfly: lol

1 killed in whale attack at SeaWorld’s Shamu Stadium

2010-02-24T15:03:00.003-06:00

i'm not going to go too far off on my soapbox at the moment, but when i hear about WILD animals attacking and killing humans when we are forcing them in these small holding tanks like sea world and zoos, it makes me just want to say...YAH YOU DESERVE IT. these animals belong in the wild or in wildlife reserves...not holding tanks or cages and taught tricks for us.

ugh. *end soapbox*

1 killed in whale attack at SeaWorld’s Shamu Stadium

Tons of HANDMADE PATCHWORK clothing for sale!!!!

2010-01-19T20:25:00.003-06:00

hey my blogger friends...

as much as it BREAKS MY HEART TO DO THIS (i am crushed, can you tell?), i have gone through my closet and have pulled out all of my beautiful patchwork clothing i have purchased over the years from some lovely talented mamas and i'm selling them on ebay as we speak. i haven't been able to wear them in years and i want another gorgeous mama to be able to wear these unique items and show them off!

i just listed them all today and they are 5 day auctions so if you are interested in picking up any of these beauties, please bring them into a good home and wear them proudly as i know i did!

~ lots of love ~

butterfly

EBAY SHOP HERE

LEARN TO WALK AWAY

2010-01-14T20:04:00.001-06:00

My New Year's NON-Resolution

2010-01-01T10:06:00.003-06:00

alright so every year i make resolutions...some i actually follow through with...others just fall flat on their faces.

with that said, i am only making 2 "NON-resolutions" this year. of course there are specifics that i want to accomplish/change, but i'm not going to do that this year.

2009 certainly wasn't a bad year for me, but it entailed many struggles and heartaches.

so for 2010...here is is.

1. BE HAPPY

2. release all negativity and things that bring negativity to my life

and i think that about does it.

wishing all my blogging world friends a beautiful and prosperous 2010!!!!

much love to all.

Songs of Faith and Devotion

2009-12-19T10:05:00.013-06:00

i wanted to share something with my readers today. for those of you that know me personally, you know that music is a HUGE part of my life. music moves me in ways that nothing else on this earth can. music has helped me out of the darkest days of my life and also led me through the happiest moments in my life. and still does to this day. i have a very wide range of music tastes and have a list of musicians and music that have played a very big part in my life. if you were to ask me who my all time favorite band is that has had the most influence on me - it would be depeche mode. i have followed them since i was in junior high and been a devotional (no pun intended with the title) fan of theirs from the first time i heard the album "catching up with depeche mode". i still have this cassette tape. i've seen them in concert more than 10 times (i've lost count) and will continue to see them every chance i get.

i saw this tour in 1993 at a very tough time in my life. i was dating a very abusive guy who was 8 years older than me at the time and i remember going to this show with him. i was 17 then. i adored this album and at that time, i was struggling with my faith. something i have done since as far back as i can remember. i was lost for a very long time. i believed in God, i didn't believe in God, i believed in "something"...i was always questioning and so confused. i always believe there was something there - i never considered myself athiest...but i always considered myself agnostic.

it wasn't until a few years ago that my faith truly started coming to me. that i was finally building a relationship with God. i continue to build that relationship daily with Him/Her. i have written a few times in this blog about my search and i'm sure there will be other posts in the future.

when i say i adore this album, i did. but i could never explain why. and in listening to the songs, i never really "got" them. i was driving home from work the other day, flipping through my cds and i found this album. i thought to myself that i hadn't heard it in so long and decided to pop it in the cd player. it has been in there on repeat since. i've probably listened to it atleast 8 times all the way through. i didn't realize until now the effect the words and the music had on me in this album until right now. it's funny when you've listened to something for so long and loved it, but it doesn't bring a deeper meaning until you least expect it.

every single song on this album is phenomenal. i did, however want to share with you all a few of the songs that move me the most. i am going to share a few videos from the devotional tour dvd that depeche mode put out and add the lyrics for you. i hope you enjoy them as well.

Depeche Mode - Higher Love

I can taste more than feel
This burning inside is so real
I can almost lay my hands upon
The warm glow that lingers on

Moved, lifted higher
Moved, my soul's on fire
Moved, by a higher love

I surrender all control
To the desire that consumes me whole
Leads me by the hand to infinity
Lies in wait at the heart of me

Moved, lifted higher
Moved, my soul's on fire
Moved, by a higher love

Heaven bound on the wings of love
There's so much that you can rise above

Moved, lifted higher
Moved, moved, by a higher love
By a higher love

I surrender heart and soul
Sacrificed to a higher goal

Moved, moved by a higher love
By a higher love
----------------------

Depeche Mode - Judas

Is simplicity best
Or simply the easiest
The narrowest path
Is always the holiest
So walk on barefoot for me
Suffer some misery
If you want my love
If you want my love

Man will survive
The harshest conditions
And stay alive
Through difficult decisions
So make up your mind for me
Walk the line for me
If you want my love
If you want my love

Idle talk
And hollow promises
Cheating Judases
Doubting Thomases
Don't just stand there and shout it
Do something about it

You can fulfill
Your wildest ambitions
And I'm sure you will
Lose your inhibitions
So open yourself for me
Risk your health for me
If you want my love
If you want my love
If you want my love
If you want my love
-------------

Depeche Mode - Mercy In You

You know what I need
When my heart bleeds
I suffer from greed
A longing to feed
On the mercy in you

I can't conceal
The way I'm healed
The pleasure I feel
When I have to deal
With the mercy in you

I would do it all again
Lose my way and fall again
Just so I could call again
On the mercy in you

When here in my mind
I feel inclined
To wrongly treat you unkind
I have faith I will find
The mercy in you

I would lose my way again
Be led hopelessly astray again
Just so I could pray again
For the mercy in you

When here in my mind
I have been blind
Emotionally behind
I have faith I will find
The mercy in you

Kickin the Habit

2009-12-16T07:59:00.002-06:00

welp, i've finally done it. i made the decision to quit smoking. i knew it was coming, my body has been ready. i smoked my last cigarette on 11/30. i have been smoke free for 15 full days. and lord knows it hasn't been easy. and it will continue to be a struggle, but i'm determined. i also haven't been out drinking with my friends either - that is going to be a huge challenge. agh. wish me luck :)

The Lovely Bones

2009-12-09T19:59:00.002-06:00

on a different note from my post i made just a few moments ago, if you haven't yet read this book, you MUST read it. it is so utterly phenomenal, yet heart wrenching. i can not WAIT for the movie to come out!!!
(and just a side note, the author's real life journey is truly amazing as well)

My Little Arteest

2009-12-09T19:50:00.003-06:00

wow, i just had to take a moment to brag about ladybug's drawing she just finished. she did it completely freehand looking at a different design to get an idea from, but made something completely her own. check it out! and yes, that's a horse's head. i think i have the next picasso on my hands.

A Special Thank You

2009-10-08T09:16:00.002-05:00

i would like to take a moment to thank my lovely and beautiful and talented blogging soul sister ~ brandi ~ for the amazing spotlight for my jewelry that she posted on her blog :

spotlight on butterfly girl creations

everything that is currently in my shop right now is 20% off and i'm gearing up my creative juices again as the autumn weather is starting to settle in . look for more jewelry to be posted soon :) :)

thanks again brandi. you are the best. truly.

Hmmmm

2009-09-11T13:11:00.003-05:00

these are the two books i'm reading at the moment. yes, going back through the twilight saga again. (i'm a glutton for punishment). i borrowed the other from crack monkey. i apparently have some issues. HA!

Infuriated.

2009-09-04T09:15:00.003-05:00

i haven't been this angry in a long time.

the ignorance of the american people and of parents in general (and this is a moment in time that i HATE being a TEXAN). make that DESPISE.

yesterday i heard about this obama speech to our children in their schools next week. my assistant came into my office yesterday and was saying how he was going back and forth all day long with his daughter's middle school stating he doesn't want his daughter to watch the president's speech next week. this was the first i had heard about it. but his reasoning is "i'm not going to have my daughter be subject to that asshole. i hate that son-of-a-bitch."

REALLY?!?!? i kept my mouth shut, but i knew finding out more about this was going to throw me through the roof. on top of not feeling well this week - and feeling even worse yesterday and now today - i am all fired up about this.

so i get online and i read things like ....

"President Barack Obama's plans for a televised back-to-school address to students next week are drawing fire from some conservatives, who say he's just trying to indoctrinate them to his political beliefs."

and

"In the Sept. 8 speech, Obama will challenge students to work hard, set goals for their education and take responsibility for their learning, Education Secretary Arne Duncan said in a letter to principals."

and

" 'He will also call for a shared responsibility and commitment on the part of students, parents and educators to ensure that every child in every school receives the best education possible so they can compete in the global economy for good jobs and live rewarding and productive lives as American citizens' Duncan said in a press release."

oh AND THIS

"But already, some conservatives are crying foul. The chairman of the Florida Republican Party is condemning Obama's speech as an attempt to "indoctrinate America's children to his socialist agenda."

"The idea that school children across our nation will be forced to watch the President justify his plans for government-run health care, banks, and automobile companies, increasing taxes on those who create jobs, and racking up more debt than any other President, is not only infuriating, but goes against beliefs of the majority of Americans, while bypassing American parents through an invasive abuse of power," Chairman Jim Greer said in a press release.
Added conservative talk show host Tammy Bruce, in a Twitter feed: "Make September 8 Parentally Approved Skip Day. You are your child's moral tutor, not that shady lawyer from Chicago." And conservative author Michelle Malkin said the lesson plans have a "heavy activist bent." "

ADDITIONALLY

"In his letter to principals, Duncan said viewing of the speech is encouraged, not mandatory. It's the first time a president has ever given a speech addressed directly to students."

i literally feel sick to my stomach. i am so enraged i am shaking...in fact, i really can't talk about this anymore. so i will just leave you with a little exchange between crack monkey and i this morning.

crack monkey: did you give administration hell?
butterfly: yes - on hold for 30 minutes
butterfly: finally got through.
asked what the reasoning behind them not showing the
presidential address was "too many parents complained"
butterfly: me - "what were they compliaining about exactly"
butterfly: admin : "we just had too many phone calls from parents
and decided we will not be showing it. it will be video taped and
available in video though"
butterfly: REALLY?!?!?!??!?!?!??!!
butterfly: so i have a phone call into ladybug's principal right now
crack monkey: you know...this could have been the coolest thing in
these kids' lives.
butterfly: i am so tired of ignorance
butterfly: truly
crack monkey: the thing they look back on that motivated them to stay
in school, go to college and get a good job
butterfly: so what i might just do it pull ladybug out of school while its on,
get her to a computer for her to watch and take her back to school
butterfly: and if they count her absent during that time, so be it
butterfly: i will cause hell on top of that if they do
crack monkey: i still remember getting to talk via video to the people while
they were discovering the titanic wreck
crack monkey: it was awesome
crack monkey: this would have trumped that
crack monkey: i hate people
butterfly: lol
butterfly: me too
crack monkey: ignorant, knee jerk reactionists that don't know progess even when
it's biting them in the butt
crack monkey: "intellectualism" has become "elitist"
butterfly: amen sister
crack monkey: stupid, stupid people

RIP SRV ~ August 27, 1990

2009-08-27T10:01:00.003-05:00

19 years ago today, we lost a brilliant musician. you are missed so dearly, stevie. God bless Texas...

~ soul to soul ~"You see, we are here, as far as I can tell, to help each other; our brothers, our sisters, our friends, our enemies. That is to help each other and not hurt each other." ~ Stevie Ray Vaughan

Ping!

2009-08-19T11:01:00.002-05:00

Ping!

Heartbroken

2009-08-18T10:23:00.004-05:00

image courtesy of photobucket

please excuse my rawness and possible manic ranting in this post, but i view this as part of my healing process, so well...here goes nothin. again....i apologize for the mere craziness of this post.

my love and i broke up yesterday. i will leave all the history out of this post, but just know we have been through A LOT together - from a drug and alcohol addiction to money issues to issues with children and ex's. it's been a roller coaster ride literally. we decided in november to give it one more shot. with all of the issues out of the way, we wanted to start a new. things were great. i truly thought things were going to work out this time. it's unfortunate how hard it is to get past some things at times. i had an underlying trust issue that was never quite resolved. we have struggled with them this whole time. it's been a slight issue, but i think i've managed pretty well with it. it seemed to be getting better.

things have been a little "off" for the past month and a half or so. let me preface with the fact that my now ex is a musician and is travelling most of the time. he's not home a whole lot, but we did live together and were sharing our lives together when he was at home and off the road. things haven't seemed right for a little while. we've gotten into a few spats and fixed them. we went on vacation to new orleans and had a wonderful time. as soon as we got home, something happened. someone from his past got into contact with him and he lied to me about it. it was bad. we got into it and things haven't been right for a week. he was out of town this past weekend and got back sunday night exhausted and very distant. i left for work yesterday morning - he was still asleep. he sent a text message to me yesterday morning saying we needed to have a serious talk about everything. i immediately called him. i could hear in his voice what was about to happen. it was a short conversation. i finished all my work - i left - went home and as i suspected everything of his was out of the apartment and the key under the mat. couldn't get a hold of him via text message or phone call.

got to the computer to check my email and his email was still up - he hadn't logged out. well...what did i find? of course communication between him and this "ex girlfriend" for whom he wrote a song about - stupid me thinking it was just a song about a girl...from his past. emails to her at the beginning of july saying how he had dreamed about her all night and couldn't stop thinking about her and that he will always love her. return emails from her stating how she will always love him and misses him. and then of course a more recent email entitled "for you" with a link to a youtube video of him playing his song he wrote for her and addressing it to her.

i'm crushed.

i'm so so so so so very angry and my heart is broken into so many pieces. AGAIN, i am 2nd. it seems like i have been in way too many situations where i have been 2nd choice. i am tired of being that person. and when you are that person for so long, you almost feel like you will be that way forever. but i know i don't deserve that. no one deserves that.

i am not blaming him for the demise of this relationship. i certainly have not been perfect - no one is. i had my role and i've made mistakes and said or done things that i'm not necessarily proud of.

but this by far is the ultimate betrayal.

so here i am in a whirlwind of emotions i go from a slight tear to fierce anger. i didn't sleep a wink last night - had major crazy dreams about his family last night as well. it was bizarre.

and to top it off there are kids involved. not "ours" together but mine and his. and they have become so close.

i can't believe he just up and left. no communication - no nothing. he did this once before to me but we had been through the "why" of it and the promise of it never happening again that i truly thought it wouldn't. and here we are.

no more chances...no more tries. no more making up. i am washing my hands completely of him from my life and starting the healing process. i know it's not as bad as in previous times because i've already been through it several times.

i know that i am going to focus solely for now on myself and on my daughter. i have put off so many things that i have wanted to do for myself and i plan to tackle them one at a time.

outdoor soccer season starts this sunday, so there's my first step. i'm looking forward to the intense running and sweating and releasing the toxins from my body...the emotional and physical ones.

sorry to be such a downer. i won't be any worse than this. it's all uphill from here. i have to go throw the motions AND the emotions and start my road to healing.

i am normally not such an open person about my personal life especially on here, but today, i felt i should be. that i needed to be.

i am thanking God for another day and asking him for the strength to guide me through this tough time in my life. better days are ahead.

*on a side and happy note, i would like to thank my sweet sweet soul sister, brandi for purchasing one of my necklaces from my etsy shop. you have no idea what the support means to me. check out her blog HERE and her photography HERE. she's such a creative and beautiful soul. thank you so much my darling. hugs and kisses to you.*

Woopsy

2009-08-15T09:30:00.005-05:00

well, leave it to me to accidentaly delete two of the photos i was trying to post in the photo blog and i couldn't get them back in order, so here ya go.

french quarter - new orleans

our hotel

Photo Blog of Natchitoches and New Orleans, LA

2009-08-15T08:06:00.048-05:00

well...i am FINALLY recouping from my week long vacation. been home for a week and i'm still in a slight daze. well worth it though. when i can find the time and the energy (not an overabundance of it quite yet around here), i will blog in detail about the trip. but for now, here are some photos to take you along our journey. i took many more, but i chose a few of my favorites. enjoy!

i would like to first set off the mood as we were leaving dallas headed east, "born on the bayou" by CCR came on the radio. couldn't get any better than that...

leaving shreveport, LA - headed southbound

had to snap a shot of this sign in the boudin shop - we had definitely entered coon ass country - i could hardly understand a word anyone was saying - strong south louisiana accent

the boudin (prounounced boodan) shop in breaux bridge, LA (famous for the boudin)

crawfish balls from the boudin shop. oh.my.goodness.

the atchafalaya basin - largest swamp in the US - definitely don't want to be breakin down around these here parts

another shot of the atchafalaya basin (please notice how i did not get OUT of the car to take a photo - there's a good reason for that ;) )

welcome to natchitoches (pronounced nakitish)

view towards the cane river from the river walk - it was breathtaking

fountain in the cane river - see the rainbow? :)

stunning magnolia tree along the cane river

all the benches looked like this. the fleur de lis definitely has a new meaning to me after experiencing louisiana.

banana plants outside the roque house

gorgeous, huge, OLD oak tree - i fell in love with it. the photo doesn't do it any justice.

the roque house

the roque house door

front door to the roque house

the steel magnolia house - primary filming of the film "steel magnolias" - they filmed the movie in natchitoches

the steel magnolia house

the mighty mississippi river - crossing over into baton rouge, LA

chartres street - french quarter - new orleans, LA

our hotel - le richelieu

one of my favorite photos of the trip - the andrew jackson statue in jackson square. i was amazed how this photo came out

jackson square in the morning

in between jackson square and the st. louis cathedral. i love the colors in this photo.

joan of arc statue - maid of orleans

gas lamps along the streets of the french quarter. i absolutely fell in love with them. especially at night. it completed the feel and ambiance of new orleans for me.

trompone player outside cafe du monde

cafe du monde coffee - i don't drink coffee, but for regular coffee drinkers, it's some of the best coffee in the world...chickory

beignets at cafe du monde. yes, they are as delicious as they look.

lake pontchartrain (the r is silent) and the causeway. 2nd largest salt water lake in the US. the causeway is the largest bridge over a body of water in the WORLD! 24 miles long. we drove all the way across and all the way back. i really felt connected in this part of louisiana - this is where many of my ancestors are from.

french quarter - new orleans

chartres street - new orleans

french quarter - new orleans

the seafood platter at deanie's. mikey and lance split it and still didn't get 1/2 way through it. good lord!

inside the st. louis cathedral

the st. louis cathedral

let me explain this photo as it came out very fuzzy. this is the statue of jesus behind the st. louis cathedral. we were walking back to our hotel from bourbon street one night and the shadow from the statue on the cathedral was utterly amazing. the photo did not capture it at all.

statue of jesus behind the st. louis cathedral. i thought it was really neat how the bird was sitting on his outstretched hand.

and this concludes our photo journey. i hope you enjoyed it. i will sit down and write more about the trip later, but it's amazing the stories that can be told through pictures. i'm definitely going back, but i have to admit, i will not be going back to new orleans in august. it was SWELTERING hot. even in the tour guide books, they have events for every month and what's listed under august says "In August, we sweat." nothing else. and that's the truth.

Friday Evening Shadow Dance on My Back Porch

2009-08-14T20:03:00.005-05:00

For.The.Love.Of.Pete.

2009-07-31T09:24:00.003-05:00

so i woke up this morning with this song immediately in my head and it still has yet to stray.

"HERE I AM! ROCK YOU LIKE A HURRICANE!"

yes, the same one by the scorpions.

why on earth? i have been asking myself that same question all morning. so just thought i would share.

maybe it has something to do with the fact that TODAY IS MY LAST DAY of work and i'm off for an entire week! going to NAWLINS with my sweetie. i.can't.freakin.wait.

i will be back soon with lots-o-pics to share.

ciao my lovely blog friends!

Top 5 Funniest Fake Facebook Pages

2009-07-27T11:27:00.002-05:00

dude.

funniest shit i have seen in a long time. i am still laughing hysterically. it's out of control.

Top 5 Funniest Fake Facebook Pages

Jesus' Facebook Page

Facebook Passover

Facebook Pages We'd Like To See

Welcome to The Twilight Zone

2009-07-24T09:12:00.003-05:00

butterfly : ok so i had to share this
me and ivycurlz went down to get muffins in the basement down here
and the little chinese guy is like "merry christmas!" with a big smile on his face
we are like uhhhhhhhhh
and they are playing white christmas, then it went to another christmas song
ON THE RADIO STATION (no it's not a cd)
i felt like i was in the twilight zone

the davish one :WTF?!? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
That's AWESOME!

butterfly : then of course ivycurlz is singing at the top of her lungs
tell her merry christmas
:P

the davish one : just did... this ought to be funny

butterfly : oh it will be. and she's UBER hyper today on top of it

the davish one : she writes " Santas comin early!'
LMFAO!!!

butterfly : christmas in july maybe?
doo doo doo doo
wtf
that was very bizarre

the davish one : twilight zone time!

butterfly : if this is a sign of how my day is going to go, i don't know if i should be scared or just go with it
LOL

the davish one : Trust me, just go with it...

butterfly : will do then
this should be interesting...

the davish one : Exactly!! God knew you needed a visit from the Cosmic Jester!
(especially after yesterday!)

butterfly : you ain't lying ;)

the davish one : ivycurlz needs your help in picking out office supplies to gift to your santa singing friend downstairs...

butterfly : HAHAHAH this is hysterical
too bad we don't have any red staplers
:P

the davish one : I KNOW! That's totaly what I was thinking...http://www.thinkgeek.com/homeoffice/supplies/61b7/

~ New Necklaces ~

2009-07-18T18:44:00.003-05:00

i've been a busy bee today whippin up these beauties ~ check em out ~

more HERE

From Ivycurlz to Butterfly :)

2009-07-17T09:36:00.000-05:00

zoe&zac

2009-07-15T21:24:00.005-05:00

for those of you that know me know that i certainly am not a shoe person. if it were up to me i would be wearing flip flops or barefeet 365 days out of the year. unfortunately my place of employment doesn't allow either of these, so i have to compromise. i have a couple of pairs of shoes that i wear to work. and they are comfy. and i like them well enough.

i stopped in payless shoes tonight on my way back from my shopping adventure at whole foods and i found these cuties to wear to work. i was iffy on getting them, but then once i read about how green this company is...well...i caved. :)

Burning In The Pits of HELL

2009-07-14T10:57:00.009-05:00

photo courtesy of photobucket

ok so i know the title is a little abrasive, but seriously folks. this is beyond ridiculous. i think we should take this as a sign.

this summer in our great state of texas is out of control! and by out of control, i mean OUT OF CONTROL.

being the nature loving, hippie gal that i am, i try to make the best of things...but this is excruciating. it's too hot to even go to the pool! the pool water is so warm it's like you are taking a luke warm bath in 150 degree weather on top of that. yuk.

you know it's bad when you walk outside and you instantly can't breath and feel the fire all over your skin.

we've had some bad summers, but this one is definitely a doozy. last summer amazingly wasn't so bad, i think it only got over 100 degrees for a couple of weeks...which is nothing considering the rate we are headed in this one.

i got a giggle on a comment of a friend of mine's facebook last night asking if we had air conditioning down here in texas. holy crikey...could you imagine life without it here? not to mention all of the heat related deaths we have EVEN with air conditioning.

just the forecast for today alone from a local news station :

Noon : 99 degrees, Sunny

Detail : Heat advisory until 7pm tonight

Winds : S 10-15mph

5pm : 105 degrees, Sunny

Detail : Sunny and very hot. Heat advisory continues

Winds : S 10-15mph

uh, so not only are we burning in the pits of hell, but with NO wind on top of it. shoot me now.

so with all of this said, i am going to be going against my hippie nature this summer and continue to stay in the air conditioner so i don't #1, fry like an egg and #2, develop the worst kind of skin cancer known to man. not to mention the million dollar electricity bill.

this blows.

SOS - send some northern winds...pronto.

Weekend in Pictures

2009-07-12T20:51:00.011-05:00

our sleeping bella on friday night :

gorgeous flowers at the pool:

ladybug's masterpiece:

gift by me to my boss' new baby girl :

gift by me to ladybug's baby sister:

crack monkey's creation for the ladybug :

our new windchimes :

ah, tranquility :

Buggiter. (My version of Bugger)

2009-07-08T10:43:00.002-05:00

well, plans for a new braunfels / austin weekend fell through unfortunately. we are replanning for mid-late august. mark my words, it WILL happen. haha.

so instead, crack monkey and i have converted our plans into a girls weekend with the ladybug filled with much pool time, some good chick flicks and some artsy fartsy creativeness.

i will be most sure to take photos from our fun weekend and post them for your viewing pleasure.

until then, i bid you adu (more than likely) cuz i'm busy as hell at work. (i know you are shocked by that news).

ciao bellos and bellas!

KITTY KLASS

2009-07-07T11:51:00.006-05:00

it's dangerous inside our heads at times....

butterfly : do you like my cuter booter tiger?
ivycurlz : awwww yes
thats adoreable
butterfly : i want a tiger *ivycurlz*
ivycurlz : lol
when i win the lotto i will buy you one fo sho
butterfly : sweet. i will have to have a house with a lot

of land so it can roam around
and sleep with me in bed at night. cuddles!
hehehe
ivycurlz : okk ok i buy you a big house too
with lots of land
butterfly : i love yew

look at my tiger...don't you just want to squeeze him and give him

big kisses?

then he will bite our faces off

no he's too young for that.

give him another 3 months or so,

then he will bite our faces off.

rawr.

ivycurlz : not till hes older

he will lick our faces

butterfly : i want him

ivycurlz : then in about 6 months

butterfly : i love hims

ivycurlz : eat our faces

butterfly : nom nom

that's what i can do,

i will raise them until they get to the age of biting my face off,

then send them off into the wild and keep them from being

endangered

ivycurlz : lol you gonna teach them to hunt

butterfly : sure! LOL

ivycurlz : hahah okdeokkkeee

here eat my arm and my leg

come catch me tiger

rargggh

butterfly : i think i'm seriously going to consider this.

move to india or somewhere and start my own wild tiger rescue

raise the cubs until they start scratching my face, then

let them go off into the wild.

sounds like a plan to me

ivycurlz : omg lets go

im in

butterfly : i would love to do that with you

ivycurlz : omg that would be the most perfect job ever

butterfly : let's do it

ivycurlz : live out in the wilderness

butterfly : and cuddle with tiger cubs all day

ivycurlz : have tons of land

feed them giant bottles of milk

butterfly : maybe we could throw in a few elephants too

and giraffes

but we can specialize in the tigers

LMAO

ivycurlz : eeeh

elephant poo is bigger than me

giraffes yes

butterfly : ew you are right.

let's stick with the tigers

ivycurlz : maybe some black panthers

butterfly : ooh yah

ivycurlz : they are pretty

or lionesses

butterfly : let's just do big cats in general

ivycurlz : YES

big cat india farm

butterfly : "IVYCURLZ AND BUTTERFLY'S BIG KITTY

RESCUE"

then undernearth it will say "rawr"

ivycurlz : LOL i love it!!!

lets call it KITTY KLASS

Klass for K*, L* and S* and S*

LOL

butterfly : ooooh that's GOOOOOOOOOD

ivycurlz : lmfao!!

butterfly : we will have to be extra careful with the girls

to make sure they don't get their faces eaten early

ivycurlz : it was stoopid but funny

butterfly : cuz they will be all up in their faces

LOL

ivycurlz : they can wear hockey masks

butterfly : perfect

ivycurlz : doooo dooo dooot doood ooodd

pink ones

lol

butterfly : that might scare the little kitties

ivycurlz : so they dont look scary

butterfly : lol yah

ivycurlz : weeeeeeeeeeeeeee

oh what fun

butterfly : i am ready. let's go.

i am assuming we need to capital or some loans

to get started on this venture of ours got any connections

with the mob?

ivycurlz : um well i did have uncle vinny

but hes 6 feet under now bad drug deal

butterfly : blast!

ivycurlz :we could knock over a bank here in the states
have pre-paid airline tickets
jump straight on the plane
and head to india
never get us there
butterfly : i like the way your mind works.
ivycurlz : when do you want to go eat?
butterfly : wheneva. do you have your lunchy here?
ivycurlz : yep!
found it stuffed in the back of the freezer
butterfly : let me finish posting our good idea to blogger, then i'll

be ready
:P
ivycurlz : lmfao!!!
omg
well maybe someone rich will read it and want to sponsor us
butterfly : you never know
ivycurlz : that would be
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butterfly : "now accepting donations"
lol
ivycurlz : kids, were moving to india
lol!!
butterfly : on that note, let's eat!

Irrelevant Quizzes for your Thursday

2009-07-02T11:44:00.002-05:00

Created by Recipe Star

Happy Pancakes

2009-06-29T10:15:00.003-05:00

the ladybug said LL's pancakes looked like a smiley face...so he added the smile. sunday fun at denny's.

Fun on a Friday

2009-06-26T13:56:00.002-05:00

The Davish One : I found out some guy is following me on twitter, and so I looked at his stuff
and he wrote this: Alexander led 40K men, over 20K miles in 11 yrs to be what he was. What r u willing to do? Be lazy? Or be Great? You can't be both.
Which has managed to put me in a tail spin for the last 20 minutes
butterfly : whoa.
i pick lazy
LOL
The Davish One : HA!
butterfly : greatness can be in my mind
The Davish One : It's hard being up here
away from ya'll
butterfly : come down and play *the davish one*
hahahhaa
(about 2 minutes later when i realized that he is actually in philly right now)
butterfly : funny thing is that i thought you were speaking in the figurative sense
then i realized you were being literal
wow, i really made myself laugh there
The Davish One : HAHAHAHA!!! Nice One *butterfly*!

Tim Burton's - Alice In Wonderland

2009-06-26T13:49:00.001-05:00

9 High Resolution Photos/Concept Art From Tim Burton’s ‘Alice in Wonderland’

wow, is anyone as excited about this movie coming out as me???? :) :)

The Controvercy of MJ

2009-06-26T08:57:00.005-05:00

this is probably going to open up a can of worms, but it's a reality. i have heard MANY mixed emotions surrounding the death of michael jackson. including myself.

most of what you're hearing is shock, sadness, the death of such a huge icon for my generation. i mean, he truly was OUR elvis, OUR beatles. granted, he was neither of the 2, but he was that big to us. and i say WAS because since his legal and morality troubles started, people did see him differently.

all of that aside, you can't argue with his talent as an artist. he brought something that no one was ever able to bring. he was truly THE crossover musician. if it wasn't for him, there would not be many of the artists out there today. seriously. my parent's generation and honestly anyone even 5-10 years older than me does not understand our feelings. they went through the death of elvis... i was too young when elvis died to feel that impact. i feel it now, but not when it actually happened. i remember when i first got the cassette tape "bad" in 1987. i was 11. my mom bought it for me. i remember wearing it out in the cassette player. i remember watching "thriller" and thinking it was soooooooo scary, but i also thought it was AWESOME. (now that i look back, that might have been the start of my zombie obsession. ha!) michael jackson's music had a huge impact on my childhood and my growing up.

he was always eccentric, but that's ok. who isn't now-a-days.

now, for the can of worms. even my own boyfriend who is my age is not at all saddened by this news. it doesn't impact him in any way. he grew up with it just like i did. but in his eyes "God don't like ugly". and yes, he is right. if the allegations were true, and only MJ and God know the real truth, then i absolutely agree. he was not found guilty of the charges. but i also have no tolerance for child molesters. and if is what he truly was, then yes, God knows that. and that is between him and God.

but i don't know for sure. i can't accuse when it all very well could have been one idea that tumbled into a full on lie because one person thought they could benefit from the money that they would receive and other people decided to hop on the train. i just don't know. i don't know the guy personally and honestly when you are in the spotlight that much, you don't know what to believe.

all i know is the impact that his music had on me and that it STILL has on me. i hear his songs and i reminisce. and i sing and i remember days of my childhood. i remember mtv when they actually played videos. they are good memories. and i can't ever deny his talent as an artist.

it's very sobering and i feel somber. i hope that people will remember his legacy and his music and not the accusations and the legal troubles that were brought to light. that's between him and God as i said before. all i know is that we truly have lost OUR superstar.

RIP The KING of POP

2009-06-25T19:00:00.003-05:00

good lord i am still speechless. michael jackson was such a HUGE part of my adolesence growing up. i still listen to my greatest hits album i have of his a couple of times a year. good flashbacks there. for our generation, this is such a huge loss. i mean, yah, the guy got pretty creepy and weird in the past...well...many years. but regardless, he was the king of pop and no one could touch his talent for our generation. he opened so many doors. 50 years old. such a horrible loss.

i had way many favorites by michael jackson...but if i had to pick one, this is the first that came to mind.

you will be missed, michael.

Interactive Post

2009-06-25T10:58:00.005-05:00

ok so my fabulous friend, the davish one and i have been having a conversation and i was disturbed to find out that a close friend believed this article to be true. i would like to know from my readers out there if they find this true as well or if they thought it was as bizarre as i did :

The Davish One : Okay *name withheld* and I are hammering it out over this article. She says it's totally correct.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1195336/Body-dysmorphic-disorder-Four-beautiful-women-distorted-way-THEY-themselves.html
butterfly :oh god. dont get me and *name withheld* mad at each other
let me look
The Davish One : not trying to start drama.
butterfly : lol
The Davish One : you agree?
butterfly : um
no
The Davish One : is your body image better than this
please tell me it is
butterfly : i think this is overexagerated
i mean yes, there are things about myself i am not too crazy about, but this is WAY far fetched
seriously
The Davish One : okay, for that... listen to *name withheld*'s first response:
*name withheld*: good article. and absolutely correct i see a chubby midget with four chins and a big nose when i look in the mirror. ;)
butterfly : surely she is kidding
The Davish One : um, no
I thought so too
but no
butterfly : uh
i don't know what to say
The Davish One : and the big nose is a body image from her mother
yeah me neither!!!
(apparenly *mother* asked if *name withheld* wanted a nose job for her 18th bday)
Now I understand why she never believes me
butterfly : jesus christ
The Davish One : when I tell her she's pretty
And I thought not trying to sleep with her would give me street cred
she said, some.... but not much
well, thank god you're more balanced....
but I bet if you showed this article to *another name withheld* she'd agree with it
butterfly : jesus. i've never in my life....
i mean i know i am overweight and i'm not where i want to be, but i think i'm relatively an attractive person. there are things about myself that i'm not too excited about, but nothing that DISGUSTES me.
wow....that's just...wow.
i can't even say anything.
The Davish One : THANK YOU!!!!
I knew that women's (and perhaps mens) self image was distorted
butterfly : they really need some therapy on self worth i think
The Davish One : like most women see themselves wider than they are, which is why anorexia is an issue
butterfly : good lord
The Davish One : Seriously!
There's a lot to be said for Self Love
butterfly : i agree
and that HAS to start on the inside
The Davish One : And then there's that
;)
butterfly : otherwise your outside version of yourself will never be correct
good lord. i am very disturbed by all that.
The Davish One : You are truly happy with yourself and it shows. You shine from the inside, and I LOVE IT, *butterfly*!!!
butterfly : aw thanks *the davish one*
The Davish One : I'm getting there on myself....
And it's getting better
butterfly : good!!!
The Davish One : and people respond differently
There are parts of me I love
and parts of me I (used to hate) now just want to better
butterfly : it's amazing how the self worth will shine through and people can see it
sure!
The Davish One : People see more of what we project that of what we are.... interesting isn't it
It's not what is actually there
but what we project that is there
I think about this and the nature of the universe a lot....
butterfly : no wonder your brain is full
:P
The Davish One : I'm trying to see the Universe as it truly is... not the constructs we project....
butterfly : metaphysics
The Davish One : And yeah, it makes my brain full, and causes me to 'hurt' other peoples brains. :D
butterfly : hehehe
The Davish One : yep meta physics
butterfly : that's why i love "what the bleep do we know?"
The Davish One : WOO HOO!!! Me Too! And I do all the time
butterfly : it's all about one's perceptions
The Davish One : smoke breaks can be lots of fun in my head
Yeah, and then I start working magic, making my own reality...
butterfly : i love you the davish one
The Davish One : For example, I have the ability to control traffic lights, and have proven this to many a person, including my mom
butterfly : and i love that you make my brain hurt
The Davish One : LOVE YOU TOO!!!!
Hahahaha, the pain means it's growing. and that's a good thing
butterfly : no pain no gain. gotcha.

Fun With crack monkey

2009-06-24T09:50:00.002-05:00

crack monkey: hey, where do you get your shin guards for soccer?
butterfly : soccer city
you can also get them at academy or sports authority
crack monkey : got another softball to the shin, in the exact same place.
butterfly : uh
need shin guards :)
crack monkey : but softball shin guards are stupid huge
butterfly : yah just get soccer ones you should be fine
crack monkey : will you come with me? am a total retard when it comes to soccer stuff. might end up wearing it on my head.
butterfly : oh dear. haha yes.
you are supposed to be italian - soccer is in your blood
lol
crack monkey : hay! i resemble that remark. ;)
butterfly : lol!

Yogi Tea - Chai Rooibos

2009-06-24T08:44:00.004-05:00

my new favorite tea : Yogi - Chai Redbush (Rooibos).

mmm it's fantastic. i do 1/2 hot water and mix with 1/2 hot milk for my own personal chai rooibus latte. add a little splenda, and whalla - PERFECTION.

and the biggest bonus - it's organic and naturally caffeine free.

me and LL spent 2 hours in central market the other day. i would LIVE there if i could.

Quick Update

2009-06-22T10:04:00.004-05:00

i have been a horrible blogger lately. and for that i apologize.

i'm still here and i TRY to catch up on my blogger friends, but lately i have been so incredibly out of the loop.

work has been absolutely insane. you know with all the rumors of the mortgage business being in such turmoil and no one is buying houses or refinances, i call BS! we are busier than we have EVER been in the 2 years that i have been here. we can't keep our head above water. i'm trying to balance work and home as well as i can, but it's getting very difficult. i am beyond burnt out. i need a vacation bad. LL and i are trying to find a good time in august or september to take a week stint out to gulf shores, al and come back through new orleans on the way back. i sure hope we can make that happen. in the meantime, crack monkey and i are taking the ladybug down to austin and new braunfels the weekend of july 10th where we will be staying HERE. AAAAH, can't WAIT!

i just moved 2 weeks ago. that was insanity. all the packing, the moving, the unpacking. and i still have quite a bit of unpacking to do, but i'm getting there. we love the new place. it was $270 cheaper than what we were paying and it's about 100 sq ft bigger. that was a no brainer. lots of trees, quaint little neighborhood. i love it.

LL and i are doing great. he's just got back from a month long tour in europe and is about to go back mid july for another 3 weeks. things are busy busy busy in all aspects of my life right now. i can't wait to take a day just to lay on the couch. i don't foresee that happening for quite some time though, so for now, i have my sights set on my weekend venture south on 35.

Comes The Dawn

2009-06-08T14:50:00.002-05:00

i was reading a friend's blog a bit ago and was feeling and hurting for what she seems to be going through right now. it made me think of 1 of my 2 favorite poems. i read this often to give me strength.

"Comes the Dawn"

Author: Veronica A. Shoffstall

After a while you learn the subtle difference

Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning

And company doesn’t mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts

And presents aren’t promises,

And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes open

With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,

And you learn to build all your roads on today,

Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,

And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

That even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,

Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure...

That you really are strong,

And you really do have worth.

And you learn and learn...

With every goodbye you learn.

You Know It's Summer Vacation When...

2009-06-08T14:35:00.004-05:00

....your daughter will NOT stop calling you on the very first day of summer break every couple of hours. same.exact.conversation...only slight differences...

me : "hey baby"
ladybug : "hi..." all sigh-ish and slumpy-like
me : "whatcha doin?"
ladybug : "nothing... i'm bored."

for the love of god, please don't let this happen all summer long. :P

It Must Be Lunch Time

2009-06-02T12:08:00.000-05:00

ivycurlz : hello

my name is hungry montoya, you ate my father prepare to die

Say Hey (I Love You)

2009-05-29T12:00:00.001-05:00

KICKASS song! shake yo ass!

Say Hey (I Love You) - Michael Franti & Spearhead

Happy Trails, Aunt Lin

2009-05-29T09:02:00.003-05:00

my awesome aunt is leaving tomorrow on a travelling adventure around the US. she's retiring, got a motor home and she's about to set sail...well...by land.

i'm going to miss her dearly, but am very envious and excited for her that she gets to do this! i sure hope i get to experience travelling at some point in my life before i leave this earth. i certainly haven't done enough of it in my 33 years here.

so aunt lin, happy trails to you - start that blog, take a lot of pictures and keep us updated! i'm going to miss you so much!!!! love you!!!

Monday Photo Blog

2009-05-18T09:34:00.008-05:00

my awesome striped pants and earth shoes:

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breakfast of champions :

butterfly : will you be my maid of honor?
i'm going to marry my muffin

ivycurlz : i would love to be your maid of muffin!

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ivycurlz feetsies at wildflower festival. rain and mud = good times

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my mint julip sweet tea and alligator on a stick :

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more mint leafs added to my tea. DELISH. :

Wildflower Festival

2009-05-15T10:59:00.003-05:00

ok enough with the negative crap on my blog - bad vibes man. now for some positivity. this week has been a hilatiously busy week at work and i'm ready for a break!

the wildflower festival is going on this weekend in a suburb of the major city i live in. i've been every year with the exception of last year and it will be guaranteed good times. hopefully i will snap some good photos - i plan on taking my camera out there tomorrow for sure. SWEET lineup of music this year - i will be checking out : kool & the gang, jackopierce, (maybe rick springfield - he's been there every year and he's cheese-tastic) tonic, the toadies, the edgar winter band, night ranger (YAH!), kansas, the wailers and robert randolph and the family band.

happy weekend all! much love to you ~ namaste

Why Should I Care?

2009-05-08T08:24:00.003-05:00

Diana Krall Why Should I Care
Uploaded by live-jazz

"Why Should I Care"

Was there something more I could have done?

Or was I not meant to be the one?

Where's the life I thought we would share?

And should I care?

And will someone else get more of you?

Will she go to sleep more sure of you?

Will she wake up knowing you're still there?

And why should I care?

There's always one to turn and walk away

And one who just wants to stay

But who said that love is always fair?

And why should I care?

Should I leave you alone here in the dark?

Holding my broken heart

While a promise still hangs in the air

Why should I care?

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 5

2009-05-07T10:50:00.002-05:00

**let me just preface this one by stating that we just received a recipe for a banana pudding that's virtually fat free, but it tastes like it has 1.5 million calories. which will be a later post with photos once i actually make it....**

ivycurlz : i wonder if you made it with fat free pudding how much different it would taste

butterfly : like ass
i keel you
lol
well you could try and batch and see

ivycurlz : im gonna try your batch
OMFG
OMFG
OMFG
i googled pudding
dont do that
dooont do that

butterfly : i <3 cary brothers
i want to marry him
do what?
ewwwwwwww *ivycurlz*

ivycurlz : i clicked on puddingfarts.com
i thought it was going to be a funny sounds thing
nooo

butterfly : LMAO!
only you...

DailyOM: Emerging Courageous‏

2009-05-06T08:16:00.002-05:00

i absolutely needed to read this today!

--------------------------

May 6, 2009

Emerging Courageous

Walking Through Your Fear

The situations, activities, and individuals that

frighten us remain static. Their relative intensity

does not change. Fear, on the other hand, self-

magnifies. It is when you are afraid and

envisioning all that might go wrong that the

energy underlying your fear grows. A tiny flicker of

anxiety can easily develop into a terror that

manifests itself physically and eventually paralyzes

you into inaction. Though frequently, in walking

through that fear, we discover that the strength

of our fright was out of synch with reality. And we

learn that doing what frightens us can lead to

great blessings. Confronting your trepidation head-

on will help you accept that few frightening

scenarios will ever live up to the negative

disasters that we sometimes play out in our minds.

Though fear is literally an evolutionary gift meant

to sharpen your senses and energize you during

times of great stress, it can nonetheless become a

barrier that prevents you from fulfilling your

potential by causing you to miss out on rewarding,

life-changing experiences. During the period before

you face your fear, you may have to deal with a

barrage of negative thoughts and emotions.

Walking through it, whether your fear is public

speaking, taking part in an activity that makes you

nervous, or asserting yourself when the odds are

against you, may be equally as difficult. But once

you have emerged unscathed on the other side,

which you will, you will likely wonder why you

assumed the worst in the first place. As you spend

time worrying about what might happen, it’s good

to know that your fear probably won’t happen at

all. It may feel like a great weight has been lifted

from your shoulders, and you will likely feel a

sense of passionate pride. Walking through your

fear can! mean taking risks and can require both

practice and patience. Since it is challenging to

act when you are gripped with fear, start small.

Each step you take into fear will strengthen you

and help you confront future fears with poise,

courage, and confidence. You will also find that

when you are willing to stare your fear in the face,

the universe will always offer you some form of aid

or support. When you see the heights of

accomplishment and personal evolution you can

attain when you walk through your fears, your

faith in yourself will grow, allowing your next step

to be easier.

Pssssht.

2009-05-05T16:48:00.000-05:00

please tell me if this really exists?

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 4

2009-05-05T11:36:00.002-05:00

butterfly : yah i dunno. maybe i have watched too many horror movies, but i don't want a house with a basement
that would freak me the fuck out

ivycurlz : um yeah
that would creep me out everyday
i would have to put a lock on it

butterfly : i don't think even a lock would help me
fock that shit
there are many houses i underwrite with basements
especially south east of here

ivycurlz : LOL
i would not be able to go down it unless it was lit up like fuckin christmas
for realz
and i had an ax

butterfly : and like 10 people with me

ivycurlz : LOL!!!!
you first, no you first
lol
halloween music starts suddenly
dodood dooo dooodd ooodddoooo

If you ever need a good laugh...

2009-05-04T10:01:00.001-05:00

http://www.textsfromlastnight.com/

greatness.

Mother/Daughter Banter

2009-05-04T09:52:00.003-05:00

text messages from me and my ladybug on sunday before she came home from her dad's :

ladybug : we're about to eat lunch : fish

me : yum. i want some!

ladybug : (sends this photo):

me : you're so pretty

ladybug : i was talking about the catfish

me : so was i

ladybug : huh?

me : YOU are pretty

ladybug : quit

And It Begins...

2009-04-22T09:23:00.003-05:00

the day i have been dreading for years has finally come.

my daughter got her first note from a boy yesterday at school.

help me baby jesus.

HAPPY EARTH DAY

2009-04-22T08:35:00.003-05:00

tread lightly on mother earth ~ today and EVERYDAY

FEEL THE RHYTHM OF THE EARTH....DANCE THE SONG OF LIFE

~ If you honor every living thing as a part of nature's treasure, you're in tune with Mother Nature. So let's all sing her song together~

Dr. Michael Mirdad

2009-04-19T19:40:00.002-05:00

i had the most UPLIFTING experience today. Mother/Father God called me to my church today. unity of dallas.

i haven't been in a couple of months and have been having a few personal struggles lately. none that i will broadcast, but let me just tell you that the sermon given today by guest Dr. Michael Mirdad was inspiring to me beyond words.

i was at church today to hear him speak. i was sent there because God knew exactly what i needed to hear and exactly what i needed to feel.

if you have a chance and are interested, please check out the sermon from today HERE. "Living The Christ Life". i never want to force anything upon anyone, but i am always willing to share information that i think is worth sharing.

i bought his book : "You're Not Going Crazy...You're Just Waking Up!" and i can't wait to delve into it.

love & light.

namaste ~~~~~

Positive Addiction

2009-04-15T08:54:00.005-05:00

so i've never really been a big starbucks fan. it's too corporate and on top of the fact that i don't like coffee anyway...well. the only thing i ever get there when i do stumble into one is a chai latte. i can't do too much caffeine....so i don't even get the chai much anymore because it tends to cause me to get a little jittery.

i took a friend to starbucks a couple of weeks ago and she turned me onto the tazo vanilla rooibos latte. i *heart* this drink. you should try one. and add a packet of splenda. you won't regret it :)

cheers!

YUMNESS

2009-04-02T08:33:00.003-05:00

yum yum goodness at genghis grill last night. yes, it was as evil as it looks.

MWAHAHAHA.

Hits and Misses

2009-04-01T12:06:00.003-05:00

i got an email yesterday from my awesome bloggin' soul brotha from maryland saying he was going to be literally 21.68 miles up the road from me for 2 days. but due to work would be unable to have time for us to meet up. oceanshaman, i sure do wish you could extend your trip for a few more days so i could have a chance (along with ms. brandi as well) to show you some good texas hospitality along with some must see's.

too bad you weren't here a few days ago for one of our thunderstorms. much love to you brother - i hope your stay is a positive experience and you will want to come back. hopefully for pleasure next time and hopefully long enough for your lone star sisters to show you around. :)

My Sweet Lord

2009-03-31T21:49:00.000-05:00

Texas Thunderstorms

2009-03-25T14:29:00.002-05:00

there is nothing like the engulfing beauty of a texas thunderstorm. and keep in mind these were taken by my crappy camera phone from my 10th floor office window about 30 minutes ago.

SXSW

2009-03-16T10:39:00.005-05:00

it's that time again...when one of the largest musical events in the world moves through our little state of texas. mar 18-22. i am totally bummed that i can't make the 3 hour trip south on I35 this year for the festivities. there are TONS AND TONS of great bands this year....but THIS one at La Zona Rosa at 10pm on Thurs Mar 19th is my biggest sadness that i will miss. :( :( :( boo.

well...and THIS one too.

i'm going to go cry now.

(and on a very interesting note, there is actually a band called natalie portman's shaved head. yes folks, i could not make this up.

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 3

2009-03-03T15:02:00.002-06:00

butterfly: um
so
i have a borrower who's maiden last name is Bull
she marries a guy with the last name of Horn
and decides TO FUCKING HYPHENATE IT!
so her last name is now Bull-Horn
REALLY?!?!
i have no words
ivycurlz : OMFG!!!
WhY???
butterfly : hahaha
exactly
the stupidity of people never ceases to amaze me
that's good i'm using it as my status
lol

a while later....

butterfly : does that german choco cake have coconut in it?
ivycurlz : i dunno
prolly
butterfly : why don't you know
i will kill you
ivycurlz : cause i dont eat germans
butterfly : good to know

Happy Birthday To Me

2009-03-02T10:00:00.000-06:00

my birthday present to myself:

Oh Boy

2009-02-20T11:10:00.003-06:00

here we go again.

Happy Friday the 13th!

2009-02-13T11:24:00.002-06:00

guess what i'm going to see tonight? yep. that's right. i am a slasher fan. and i've seen many a jason flick in my day. it's probably gonna be pretty terrible, but i have to see it. who knows, it might actually be pretty good - it is a remake after all. it can't get any worse than the original, right?

ha....

so to you and yours happy friday the 13th!!! (oh and happy valentine's day also tomorrow).

Fun With STRAIGHT Hair!

2009-02-11T09:37:00.007-06:00

this might not be strange to those of you that don't know me on a personal level, but i spend 1 hour (yikes) over the weekend straightening my hair. it hasn't been straight since i straightened it everyday in high school. after high school, i finally gave in to my natural curl and let it go.

the truth is, i LOVE it straight! the other truth is that i am so low maintenance that spending an hour on my hair does not feel justified in my eyes.

so...i think it will definitely be a sometimes on the weekends thing :)

(by the way, i think this is really the first time i've ever posted a clear picture of myself on this blog. first time for everything, right?)

Sleeps with Butterflies

"One" by U2

~ In Stock Jewelry on Etsy ~

~ NECKLACE SALE ~

New Necklaces

Diet Time Again

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 8

Bridesmaids

It's All About The Dress, Right?

Is This Thing On?

The Joys of MortgageLand

Jeremy Spoke In Class Today

Stairway to Where?

If You Love Someone....

Philippe Cousteau, Jr.

"Can A President Be An Angry Black Man?"

Lo-cal

Jesus Built My Hot Rod

My Dinosaur Ate Your Jesus Fish

More Banter

The Moon and New York City

The Death of Stupid

Jeff, the God of Biscuits

Today's Baby Jesus Quote

Hot Mess

Can't.Stop.Laughing.

Manshack

Randomonium

End of The Week Banter

I *heart* gmail

Quote Of The Day

PHISH in 3D - in theaters April 30th

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 7

Stop Touching Me

Really?!?

Psycho Ramblings From The Overworked And Underpaid : Volume 6

1 killed in whale attack at SeaWorld’s Shamu Stadium

Tons of HANDMADE PATCHWORK clothing for sale!!!!

LEARN TO WALK AWAY

My New Year's NON-Resolution

Songs of Faith and Devotion

Kickin the Habit

The Lovely Bones

My Little Arteest

A Special Thank You

Hmmmm

Infuriated.

RIP SRV ~ August 27, 1990

Ping!

Heartbroken

Woopsy

Photo Blog of Natchitoches and New Orleans, LA

Friday Evening Shadow Dance on My Back Porch

For.The.Love.Of.Pete.

Top 5 Funniest Fake Facebook Pages

Welcome to The Twilight Zone

~ New Necklaces ~

From Ivycurlz to Butterfly :)

zoe&zac

Burning In The Pits of HELL

Weekend in Pictures

Buggiter. (My version of Bugger)

KITTY KLASS

Irrelevant Quizzes for your Thursday

Happy Pancakes

Fun on a Friday

Tim Burton's - Alice In Wonderland

The Controvercy of MJ

RIP The KING of POP

Interactive Post

Fun With crack monkey

Yogi Tea - Chai Rooibos

Quick Update

Comes The Dawn

You Know It's Summer Vacation When...

It Must Be Lunch Time

Say Hey (I Love You)

Happy Trails, Aunt Lin

Monday Photo Blog

Wildflower Festival

I heart gmail